Good morning. Ugh it's too early to be up! It's not that early, but it's like 6:00.. I want to go back to bed so bad. I'm so tired I wasn't on the phone very late last night I think I got off at 11:30 which is not bad but I'm gonna add to this intake all day:

Intake:

B-Water w/ lemon + 1 painkiller + 1 vitamin= 5 calories

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Have a good day you guys.

</3 Kelsey

Grrr! Was supposed to be a liquid fast!! Grr.. my dad's girlfriend made dinner and it was good because we had salmon, but I had salad, salmon, and a (GRRRRRRR) white roll!!! gross. But I drank a lot of water too. I feel like shit for eating so much, and I was almost going to puke it while they were still here, but I didn't.. they were going to leave soon, and I was going to do it after they left but I didn't. I ate a food that has like sharp edges also and I really didn't feel like getting my throat all cut up when I get my braces off next week. Anyways. Mucho love!

</3 Kelsey

122 binged and gained one..

Intake (so far):

B-Water, 1 vitamin, 1 painkiller ~5 calories

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Good morning girlies. I've been subscribing and commenting on sites for almost an hour now. I'm in a challenge now. If anyone knows of any super good challenges, totally let me know! I want to get in more than one. I was going to workout this morning until Ashlyn got dropped off here cause we're baby sitting her I guess and I'm gonna have some people here later, so I won't really have time for anything until later tonight. I can workout whenever in the day lol I've worked out at 1:30 in the morning on a Sunday night, cause that's what time I got off the phone. It really doesn't matter to me how tired I am either. I'm liquid fasting today. Wish me luck on it. I have 7 pounds to lose next week. Wish me luck on that too!! I'm gonna liquid fast all week (hopefully). My girlfriend got upset yesterday when I told her all I had for breakfast was an apple and all I had for dinner was egg whites. I snacked on trail mix all day though. It was granola trail mix with: granola, dried strawberries, dried bananas, almonds, sugar dates, and raisins. I picked little things out here and there avoiding anything with salt. I am so cold it's not even funny. I'm wearing 3 pairs of pants and one hoodie. I really need to workout tonight and lose those two pounds ugggh. The only things I'll prolly end up doing are running for a half an hour, 20 minutes of taebo, 20 pushups, 20 crunches (weak yes I know), and tons of stretching. In what order I don't know, but it doesn't really matter to me right now. I'm hoping since some people are going to be here today, I'll get distracted from food. The places in the house where "bored" binging is most common for me is on the computer. When I'm on the phone it's the same thing I'll eat and eat and eat and then when I get off the phone I realize what I've done. I have 40 pounds to lose before I reach my goal weight! I've never thought about how much I have to lose, but that's it. I'm so hungry right now. Ugh.. whatever, all the old feelings are coming back and I love it. If I don't eat anything today, there's no way in the world I could tell Jen that.. She'd flip out. My best friend Chanel was like "If I see ribs Kelsey I'm putting my foot down!" cause she's my little support system. But um.. bones sticking out is the entire purpose she just doesn't know that. Yah so apparently my ex boyfriend reads this site. Awkward? I ono I can't tell. Doesn't matter to me. But if Jen found it, then we'd have a problem! Anyways, now that I've written you guys a novel! I'm gonna go.. Have a super day!

</3 Kelsey

121 lbs (lost one last night!)

Hey, I went to a dance last night with most of my friends (a handful of them went to the football game). I was actually surprised about what I was wearing last night. It was like a spaghetti strapt tank top, and a pink & light brown skirt and pink flip flops. I looked really cute, and the skirt that I wore last June... was a little bit too big on me. I was very happy about that. Some of my friends were talking about how skinny I was and that made me a little bit happy. And Krista was there.. She was the girl who told me a couple weeks ago that I need to "FUCKING EAT!" Cause she thinks everyone thinks I'm skinnier. Yah ok whatever that's why it guaranteed that at least 5 people will call me fat during the day. People are stupid, and they have no idea what they're doing to me. Whenever some of the stupid people I'm hanging out with are really rude to the "fat" people at school or are saying like mean things to their face or behind their back, I'm just like "You fucking idiots! That's how people commit suicide and go bulimic and be anorexic! Do you feel all big for making fun of them?! Fuck you guys! Get a life.." I did that on Friday.. I flipped out on one of them. Not only cause that's rude, but they were talking about my dad's girlfriend Viky's Daughter Felicia and I was pissed about that. It's in her genes to be big, and even though she could do something about it it's in her genes! You can't fix that. But whatever. Intake today was supposed to be nothing, but so far I've kept it healthyish with 1/2 cup trail mix and grapes. I ono what else I'll have tonight, MAYBE egg whites for dinner. I ono I will most definetly work out tonight, and lose TWO pounds so I'll be at 119. Oh to break into the teens.. I haven't been there since July and I want it back so bad. I'm doing pretty good with the whole 1 week to lose a certain amount of pounds. I thought I would do so much worse. But once I do certain things today, I'll meet this weeks goal weight. It makes me happy to be making progress from where I was.. to see 121 on the scale for the first time in a while made me happy. And because 121 is ALWAYS my plateau I need to figure out something to do to so I can stay away from "plateau-ing" Because I know I will. Anyways I'll post my entire intake later tonight.

</3 Kelsey